Day 4 post transfer

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

This morning I woke up feeling different. I didn't feel as cloudy or as crabby as I have been. I actually had a little bit of energy. I told Jake, "I think the embryos died. I don't feel crabby anymore." As if I need to feel crabby to be pregnant. Haha. Maybe it's my cold lifting. That would be fantastic. But I do have to be careful about doing too much too soon. I'm really bad at that.

For most of the morning I wrapped gifts and organized my new craft cabinet. I was trying to ignore my ever persistent hunger and then finally ate lunch around 12:30-1:00 or so. As I finished lunch, I got the weirdest feeling. I started feeling really lightheaded and my head felt like it was buzzing or humming or something. It was really weird. I thought, Ok, time to lay down now. It lasted for about 15 minutes or so and then eventually went away. I don't know if I waited too long to have lunch or what, or maybe I was too active this morning. So naturally I went straight to Google for answers. When I do this, I tend to look for one of two things: either the answer I want, or the answer that tells me I'm dying. Or in this case, my babies. Straight to worst case scenario: first I looked for symptoms of early miscarriage. I swore I've heard of those feelings before in a very early miscarriage. When I didn't find anything conclusive, I switched to a more generic search and found something I wanted to hear. It's possible my body could be gearing up for an increase in blow flow and my blood vessels might be beginning to dilate. This can also be caused by progesterone, which apparently also relaxes and widens blood vessels. Or, maybe since I'm always so freaking hungry anymore, maybe I just had low blood sugar and it took my lunch a while to regulate things. Needless to say, I laid down for the rest of the day.

One thing is for sure though, Jake is going to be a great pregnancy baby daddy if he gets the chance. I have been snacking like crazy on Honey Nut Chex lately. Since I'm so hungry all the time, it's been impossible for me to go from meal to meal without eating something in between. I am never in the mood for fruit or veggies when I want to snack. I refuse to eat chocolate because of the caffeine (which is probably over the top but I don't care, I'm not taking any chances), and most "snacky" foods are out for me since I cut out gluten last year to help with fertility. That stuff just makes me sick now anyway. So that leaves me with gluten-free, crunchy-sweet Honey Nut Chex. I've been going through a box every few days. Not proud. But anywayyyy, after working super late in the field and coming home to do even more work on the computer, hubby stopped at Publix to pick up a few things on the way. He arrived home with not one but TWO boxes of Chex! He's the best. Now I can eat twice as much, haha. Did I mention he also did all the dishes, cooked me dinner, and worked up until bedtime? I hope I can reward all his hard work with a baby or two. ;)